So many things to say. The first few weeks of S’s life were just so hard, I didn’t have time to come up for air, and I couldn’t bring myself to write about it. The reality made me sad, and I didn’t want to document it. I took no photos those first few days in the hospital when we were the most scared.
Now, though, S is doing great. She was 7 pounds 3.5 ounces yesterday, up from a low of less than 5.5 pounds. She takes more than 90% of her food by mouth, 95%+ most days, so I think we’ll be able to get rid of the NG tube in the next 2 to 3 weeks. She’s also started sleeping at night, which is giving me my sanity back. Feeding her is very time-consuming, and I’ve had virtually no free time, unless you count pumping as a leisure activity.
It’s been harder than I expected, but I know these early difficult days will pass soon enough. It’s reassuring to see how solid and big and strong her older sisters are.