I have been feeling a bit better. A couple weeks ago, the baby shifted and settled in on my bladder, and for a while, I felt like I needed to go, like urgently, pretty much 100% of the time. It was miserable. I can’t really figure out why / how this happened, but thankfully, it passed, and that made a huge difference to my comfort and happiness. I’d also been having a lot of trouble with acid reflux, even waking up at night with my mouth feeling like it was full of acid. It was pretty rough. I finally broke down and started taking Zantac (carcinogens or no) and now after taking it every day for a week, I’m really not having any acid reflux whatsoever. This has also had a huge impact on my general comfort and happiness.
My sister shared her wedding photos, and there are so many good ones. There will definitely be some going on my wall. Her photographer did an exceptional job. I love the tone of the pictures as well.
In other news, I have been really worrying about childbirth, and I don’t know how to just take a chill pill about it. I’ve done it twice. Women all over the world have done it once or twice or several times, often without any kind of pain meds. It’s also not happening for an absolute minimum of five or six more weeks unless something goes wrong, most likely for seven or eight weeks. I’m just not sure what to do to manage my anxiety about it.