One of the things about the internet and social media is that you get exposed to so much tragedy. The friend of a friend, a toddler, nearly drowned and was left with a brain injury a couple years ago. My friend posts about it, and it breaks my heart. Just the utter pointlessness of it and also hopelessness. A little girl, age 2, dealing with a second recurrence of leukemia. A girl who attended my elementary school died of leukemia. I’m guessing anyone reading this blog who went to my school and instantly remember her name. But she was the only one I knew of as a child. Today, people share and you hear all these tragic stories. No child should ever have cancer. It’s just so utterly unfair and ridiculous and harsh. It breaks my heart. Then the father of one of the children who died at Sandy Hook committing suicide. I wish I didn’t know about Sandy Hook. New Zealand had a massacre and they changed their gun laws. We lose 20 six-year-olds and change nothing. But just thinking about that poor man and his beautiful child murdered just is hard to wrap my mind around.
On one hand, it seems absurd to get upset about the tragedies of strangers. I’ve cried tears over these people who I’ve never met. On some level, this seems ridiculous. On the other hand, to not be moved by such tragedy, even of strangers, seems heartless and cruel and callous. But I wish I could go back to the days when I just didn’t know about so many sad things.